… that is butterfly kiss fragile. It exists between longing/wishing/hoping/wanting more because we see our lives as lacking, and guilt/anger/despair/hopelessness – all of which is the endless story telling of the mind. In between this array of hope and despair is a gossamer thin line, an entryway into infinite wisdom, joy, love and laughter. In this space lives forever. In this space lives today.
Peace lives in this space – peace of mind – a perfect surrender to a perfect intelligence. When I glide through that thin space, so butterfly kiss fragile, into the Present Moment, I know that herein lies all of my life. It is not out there in that emotional see saw. It is right here, in this place of Presence.
Life Itself bursts into a different reality as we enter the Present Moment, showering us with love and joy. The pain of perceived rejection and failure fades back into the illusion of emotional reaction. We venture into the world of vulnerability through authentic communication. How foolish to even begin to think love and joy come from outside us.
Tangled as we may have been in the weeds of lack and fear, it is inspiring to understand that nothing lasts forever when it is based in the world of form. Love and truth exist in this Present Moment, in this space of today, and they exist eternally.
I think of my favorite heroes and heroines, my mentors, the authors who have blazed pathways of hope and inspiration before me. They all taught the Present Moment reality in one form or another. It has been a long journey to the realization and knowing of this truth for myself.
Horizontal and Vertical Time
I love how Eckhart Tolle talks about clock time, (the time we use on planet earth, the past and the future), as being horizontal and the timelessness of the Present Moment as being vertical. I picture the surface of the earth as it runs up high mountains and dives down into mighty oceans. Every once in a while deep fissure opens into which I can suddenly drop – free-falling into an unknown space. That can be a very scary thought – dropping into the unknown. How far will I fall? Is there an end to my fall? What and who is at the end – if there is an end? The unknown can be terrifying. Better to stay on the surface in the known, no matter how tortured the mind, no matter how much suffering is experienced. And yet…what if there is something there in that great unknown, something that can only be experienced by letting go of the known?
Meditation is a perfect example of the horizontal experience of thought, of past and future, and the vertical experience of the Present Moment. Meditation helps to release those fleeting, story telling thoughts so we can drop into that place of deep inner stillness. The more moments of deep inner stillness we can experience, the more the scales tip to being able to live a life rooted in the Present Moment. Not as something to do, there is nothing to do, but as something to experience – the Present Moment, the awareness of the true Self expressing in physical form.
Emerging Butterfly Moments
Each butterfly kiss fragile moment that opens up – each exquisite and delicious fragment of awareness – I like to think of as the shell of the chrysalis breaking open, and the precious, delicate butterfly emerging. The more of these precious Present Moment experiences we have, the more the chrysalis of limitation falls away until the butterfly is able to spread her wings and fly.
Most of us have experienced these present moments of oneness with life, whether it be in a meditation, running, skiing, walking in the forest or on a beach, playing with a puppy, sharing a special moment with a loved one. And then we fall back into the dramas of daily living. It’s so wonderful when we can live those moments throughout the day, keeping our energy levels high and our passion for life moving, creating a living meditation experience you might say. Energy is sapped by a mind engrossed in its stories of the past and the future, but it is buoyed magnificently when we can stay in the Present Moment.